The weather turned absolutely gorgeous today in North Carolina. When I pushed off this morning just after 11, it was nearing 60 degrees, so I popped on a tank, some Norts (if you’ve been following along, you know what Norts are), and hit the road for a naked, headphone-free run.
Mid-run I realized something. I didn’t do a gut check before I left. And I haven’t done a gut check in forever. What is the gut check, you ask? The gut check is the practice of lifting up your shirt, checking your gut region, and analyzing it from each angle while lamenting everything you’ve eaten/every day you haven’t worked out for the past week. Usually it’s followed by some pretty self-deprecating thoughts, swearing off all junk, and trolling celebrity gossip websites for bikini pictures of Mila Kunis.
I also realized that Target has some of their bikinis out and I’m not freaking out. And I came to this – exercise makes you feel so good about yourself, there’s really no need for the pre-summer freakout, or the New Years Resolution/Spring Break workout fest, followed by a crash. I remember (especially being an undergraduate student with a little tummy pudge), feeling awful about my body. Freaking out when it came to bathing suit time, feeling fiercely jealous of girls who actually worked out with great bodies, and not really knowing what to do to make the changes I wanted to see in my body and in my confidence.
Going from being mean to myself to caring about myself and actually being confident didn’t happen overnight, but I’ll say this. I’m perfectly aware I’m not a supermodel, and that a career as Naomi Campbell may not be in the cards for me. However, the more/harder I work out, the less worried I get wrapped up in what I look like. I’m doing the best I can, my body is looking pretty fierce, so there’s no need to freak out or complain.
So if you’re one of those ladies (or gentlemen) constantly finding yourself doing the gut check, asking your significant other if you’re fat, or comparing yourself to weekly bikini pics in InTouch Weekly, chill out! Commit yourself to an enjoyable regimen, and the self-destructive comments and humor will seem a silly little thing you did in the past!